.Wednesday, June 11, 2008 ' 7:34 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
"to realize the value of a friend, lose one." lost a friend? yep, i sure have. it wasn't one of those cases you would normally expect - where it takes years to happen because the two parties lost contact. no. it happened overnight. over the hols, when we didn't see each other for mere days. when we got back, ready to start the new year, looking forward to the big changes coming up, the last thing i expected was the cold treatment from you. time heals all wounds? bullshit. as the months went by we just drifted further and further, till the point we would just wave hi when we saw each other, and leave it at that. and to think just a short time back, we were enjoying each other's company, joking around all the time... i really wonder what happened, where the camaraderie went. now you barely acknowledge the fact you knew me once.
i hate to admit it but it keeps me awake sometimes, reflecting on what really transposed. was it my fault? yours? til now i can still say, i really don't know. this feeling sucks bad. but what do u care? apparently you're happy on your own. i would still like to look forward to us patching up, but that cynical and usually right part of me says that's wishful thinking. so i realize what it means to not matter, but that's okay. who you are, who you used to be, doesn't matter to me either.
